Yesterday was memorable. Marco finally opened his door for other people's friendships. He wasnt drunk for three days already and he's so sweet! After we excahanged gudnyts on chikka, he called me on the phone. First time he called without a trace of alcohol in his veins. Hes not bad at all! He was rather sweet. So sweet :( that it made me long for his physical presence :( Well thats how it has to be at the moment.

Meanwhile, I have to confront my situation in Escalante. Darn this place. Its awfully boring here and lonely. I understand now what homesickness truly means. Ive been to many places but this one's different. Should i stay with the Absalons? or should i move out with Lourdes? I know Lourdes doesnt have a conservative reputation but im not dependent on her. I just hope i could easily adjust to the place. The thought of moving gives me a sickening feeling.

I think my current assignment in escalante bothers me. I am totally unproductive this week. This shouldnt be. Im not apathetic towards my work. Im just presently unmotivated. If only i could purchase a bag of motivation somewhere. Life would be much easier to handle then.

Right now im still waiting for marco. GRRR. Marco where are you??? I hate alcohol.

klouise danced at 6:56 PM