who loves me? who loves me not?

i am getting older. i still have no steady bf yet. part of me feels pressured to find the right guy soon but it seems that the more i am exposed to mens' infidelities, the more i feel threatened to change my status. i am finally giving in to "God's Will" believing that with His vast richness, He can provide all my needs. But God is not too swift in answering prayers. Often, the devil arrives handy with enough temptations that only confuse my already desperate heart. i could harldy tell if one suitor is already the fallen angel being sent for me to finally experience the utopic love i have been imagining.

my ex has taught me that idealism could not exist in this generation and marco has exhausted my heart so much that sometimes i thought i ceased to believe in true love anymore. men, give me a break. have i become paranoid? i missed the gecko that gave me a twist of hope with its sound: he loves me, he loves me not or should i marry?should i not. hehe chapman hall that was quite an experience.

klouise danced at 12:00 AM