the police

christopher ughayon texted and it opened a door of friendship with him. eventually, he courted and it is deemed to be my weakness not to hurt other people's feelings. kit is a policeman and i dont want a police in my life. especially not as a boyfriend or a husband. policemen are known for their infidelities, inadequate salaries and the risks that constitute their life. no i dont like the thought of it. Not that i am undermining the potentials of policemen, for i am not perfect myself. and i cannot generalize their characteristics either. my idealisms somehow floated on the surface, much to the dismay of my friends.

anyhow, i paid him respect by not ignoring him and through our text communication, i realized hes not bad at all. hes one of the few upright and well-admired policemen who really uphold the law albeit he is not that good in english. he is a reformed addict and it is evident in his attitude that he comes from a family of good breeding.

what do i really want? am i just scared to have him? because of the people's criticisms? or am i merely afraid of getting hurt again. pip is right. i should free myself from all worries so i can be a butterfly again.

life is determined by the choices u make. the future is shaped by the road that you take at the present moment. NO i dont choose the individuals i go out with. i know i can blend with people from all kinds of races. i do not discriminate men. maybe im just being careful on choosing a partner. i wish God will reveal the patterns He is weaving in my life. I must hold on to Him before i go astray.....Whatever is His plan for me, there's nothing else to do but embrace it. Life....

ps. kuya Oyen remember how u once predicted it? he looks quite a little like you :)

klouise danced at 11:03 PM